In the years before I left my legal career behind, I found myself pondering the question “I want to be …..”.
I came up with a lot of things I didn’t want to be, but I couldn’t grasp the last word. It was on the tip of my tongue, toying with me.
Looking back, I can see that I was looking for a replacement career when what was needed was a complete overhaul of me.
The breakthrough finally came with a head of steam after a 90 hour week, a car crash, lack of sleep and a few other things that I’ve forgotten with the passage of time.
I’m sure I was purple in the face with frustration, tiredness and, quite possibly, rage. I was a woman on the edge and had completely had enough!
I felt a rumble inside, an energy rising up from my belly, as I stood in front of the bathroom mirror and shouted I JUST WANT TO BE AUTHENTIC!
I didn’t realise at the time, but this was my breakthrough and I had my word which was to become my golden ticket into a completely different way of being.
For the first time, I wrote down the things I wanted to do rather than what I didn’t like doing. The surprising thing is; they were really simple things.
I wanted to spend time with my dog rather than two rushed walks a day and relying on a dog walker. I wanted time to clean my house and do my own chores. I wanted to wear jeans everyday instead of suits that suffocated me. I wanted to choose my hours of work rather than be on a never-ending clock. And I wanted to live abroad. The list went on and on (and became a lot more exciting) and continues to be added to, even to this day.
It hasn’t been easy, but I can tell you that many years later, after following my heart to live an authentic life, everything in my life has changed beyond recognition. The quest for authenticity required a complete breakdown of the old to birth the new and a massive amount of deep soul cleansing. The quest for an authentic life is the path I now follow and will hold onto for dear life.
I know I’m not alone in the search for the word at the end of the sentence! Over time, I noticed a pattern in my one-to-one coaching sessions. Almost every client in the first ten minutes would dart around her life, unsure of herself. I could see they were looking and feeling for it. What is it they want, what needs to be said?
With a sudden gush of energy that rises up from their belly, through their solar plexus, bursting through the heart and out of their throat, their voice full of passion and power, they utter the words “I WANT TO BE……” Every woman’s word is different. The woman has found the word that will be her golden ticket if she chooses to walk the path of change.
From that moment, the woman is engaged body, mind and soul. She is animated, cross, happy, tearful and quite often laughing her head off.
It’s the equivalent of watching a flower somehow come back to life.
She has engaged with her desires, stepped back into her power and is ready to walk her path if she chooses. She isn’t worried in that hour about what people think, how she might be perceived and the obstacles in her way.
She revels in her desire for a better life.
So, for those of you living an unfulfilled life in any capacity; ask yourself the question “I want to be…….”. Find your word and hold onto it. Give yourself the space to find out what you really want to do with your precious time. It’s not easy but if there is a will there is a way.
Your word is the golden ticket….find it!
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